Sometimes I think I have everything figured out. Sometimes I feel certain that I have everything under control. Sometimes I’m confident that I’m doing what’s best for Gio, That I know exactly what his needs & wants are, & I can fulfill them.
& other times…
I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing. Like I’m taking a test I never prepared for. I wonder if I’m giving Gio everything he needs to succeed. If I’m setting him up to be too dependent on me when I refuse to let him cry it out? If I’m wrong for wanting to co-sleep because he sleeps better when he’s snuggled next to me? If I’m breastfeeding too often.. or not enough? If I’m being too protective by not wanting to put him in daycare? If I’m too strict with his diet or not structured enough when it comes to a daily schedule or routine? Am I doing enough? Or too much? I could go on & on.
I know in my heart that God has His hand in everything & I need to just give these doubts up to Him & trust that He knows what He’s doing. He’ll take care of us. I need to be His co-pilot, not the other way around. & when I feel inadequate I try to remember that God gave me a perfectly beautiful son, but he also gave him a loving, good-intentioned mother! We were placed in each other’s lives with purpose & even though some days I’m filled with self-doubt when I compare myself to other moms (who appear to have it SO much more together than me! Seriously, why can’t I just get it together like so & so!?!) I think it’s important to step back & remind myself I’m doing the best that I know how. I’m giving it my all. My dad used to tell me, “If you’re doing your best, that’s all you can do!”
So I think we as moms need to give ourselves a break & a little more credit. Which is why I recently framed the quote, “You are enough.” So I look at it daily & I’m reassured that yes, I can totally do this! I was made for this. & even though everyone has different opinions & theories about what is best for children, just remember, “If you’re doing your best, that’s all you can do!” I’m rooting for you. Don’t worry so much, you’re doing just fine. You are enough.